you can't make other person happy without you being happy about yourself.
you can't actually be happy when you have no one else around.
you often misunderstood happiness with joy.
you are trying every way to be happy and automatically make others unhappy.
you are happy with one person while they're the other way.
you are now confuse about this 5 characters that can't understand yours, let alone your lover's character.
you still want to be happy,
even with knowing how complicated it is.